by LAURA SANCHEZ, Opinions Editor
I started my first internship a couple of weeks ago, and it was everything that I was expecting… and not at the same time. I don’t know if it’s too narcissistic or self-involved if I say that if I set my mind to a task or job, I can become pretty good at it. So for that reason, I wasn’t too worried or nervous about beginning the internship. I just thought that if I remembered my tasks and did what I was supposed to do, I’d manage it.
And so the internship started, and so did my wake-up call. My tasks aren’t difficult per se, but they are real. They’re real-world tasks with actual real-world repercussions. Not that the tasks I held at old jobs weren’t real – they were – but they just don’t have that degree of passion and responsibility I feel towards the tasks at a job I would eventually like to have once I graduate. Actually working in my desired field, actually seeing how people can be affected by the work that I’d be doing, and realizing how big of an impact organizations like the one I’m interning have on people’s lives, is extremely eye-opening and wondrous. Doing – instead of seeing – makes me actually understand this line of work.
The truth is, nobody really expects you to know what you’re doing. No one expects you to remember every piece of data and information, or people’s names, or the name of every single program that organization has to offer. What they do expect is sincere professionalism and commitment and responsibility towards everything. I don’t know how many questions I asked on my first day, and I don’t know how many times I said the word ‘sorry’ when I had a doubt or was trying to be extremely polite.
It’s crazy, because with the amount of information and reponsibilities I was swarmed with, I immediately thought, “I feel like I should get an adult to deal with these situations… I don’t feel fully equipped or capacitated to deal with this!” And then I realized that oh wait, I AM the adult in this situation and am fully expected to deal with whatever I’m given. It makes sense – I’ve been educated and instructed up to this specific point in life to deal with what I’m given, but I still sometimes feel like a teenager without a purpose in the world, one who should not be given any sort of “adult’ responsibility. But alas, I’m here, I’m an adult, and I know that I can do this if I set my mind towards this.
It may seem overwhelming right now, but hopefully, come April, I will be feeling extremely confident in my ability to execute my tasks well. Hopefully, I’ll learn a bit along the way and not struggle and doubt my entire existence and future. Slowly but surely, I’m making my way towards a big-girl job, with the corresponding dreams and successes.